Part 17
Silence
filled the air. The Guptas and the Raizadas stared at Khushi, their mouths
open.
Arnav
looked down at his clenched fists in his lap.
Finally
Anjali croaked, “No.”
“You should
have married him off, Anjaliji,” Khushi laughed. “To someone with a temper
worse than his. That would have been a perfect punishment for Arnavji.” She
looked at Arnav, a teasing glint in her eyes.
Arnav
smiled slightly in response, his clenched jaw refusing to relax.
“He would
have spent all his time saying ‘What the, What the!” Khushi laughed, unaware
that she had remembered something more about Arnav.
Arnav drew
in a deep breath to brace himself. She was beginning to learn him once more.
She was on the way to recalling and knowing him. His fate would be decided
soon.
“Hello Hi Bye
Bye!” Mami said, fanning herself.
“Hai Re Nandkisore!” Buaji whispered.
It was
as though Arnav’s presence had opened the floodgates of Khushi’s memory. She
was regaining her memory very fast.
Unaware of
the shock she had just given the families, Khushi dumped a load of pakoras on
Arnav’s plate and moved his tea closer to his plate.
“Ab aap
khayiye,” she told him.
Arnav
nodded but did not touch the snacks. The boulder in his throat would not let
him swallow.
“Jiji!”
Khushi called Payal. “Your Jetji has some secret enmity with food. He is not
taking the pakoras. Jiji, I will make his pasandeeda karela for him at night.
We have to keep him healthy somehow.”
Payal’s
smile faltered. The Guptas and the Raizadas looked at each other.
Khushi had
remembered that karela was Arnav’s favourite vegetable.
“And I will
make sugar-free halwa for you,” Khushi promised Arnav. “Ab aap pakore khayiye.”
Arnav
nodded obediently.
It was
night.
Khushi
stood at her window, letting the wind play with the loose strands of her hair.
She shut
her eyes, her mind racing to the night at Sheesh Mahal when she had fallen in
to Arnavji’s arms. She had been scared, very scared as she had been pushed on
to the stage. But when she had looked in to his angry eyes, the panic had
stemmed, overpowered by some kind of magical spell that had fallen over her.
His arms
had been hard, his hold tight. But soon the fingers on her waist had softened,
gentled. The anger in his eyes had become something else; some nameless emotion
had filled his eyes and trapped hers.
And when he
had questioned her—there had been anger in his voice, a sense of betrayal, a
need for revenge. But underlying the fury had been pathos, a deep anguish that
had tugged at something in her heart.
That was why she had not been able to
badmouth him to her family, curse him, vent against him. She had taken the
blame on herself and stayed quiet, her heart and mind full of his hurt eyes and
his pain-laced insults.
Khushi
turned and walked to her bed.
As she lay
there looking at the ceiling, she thought about the Arnavji at Sheesh Mahal and
Arnavji now. Then he has been a monster or a man driven by demons. Now he was
calmer. A man carrying some great burden on his shoulders. His eyes always
looked wounded, sad.
Why had akhdoo Arnavji become such a dukhi atma?
She jumped
out of bed and walked to Arnavji’s room to find answers.
The door
was shut but not locked. She pushed it open and walked in to stand by his bed
and look down at his sleeping visage.
Arnavji was
wearing a purple T-shirt with full sleeves. His eyes were shut and his head was
resting against a white pillow with a small butterfly that she had embroidered
on it many years back.
As she
watched, a frown appeared on his forehead and he turned his head restlessly on
the pillow. The fingers of the hands on his chest and stomach clenched.
Khushi
placed her hand on the hand on his chest, rubbing his fingers gently, trying to
comfort him in his nightmare.
As she
watched, the frown vanished, the fingers relaxed and he slipped in to deep
sleep.
‘Who is
this man?’ Khushi asked herself. ‘Why do I feel there is an invisible bond
between him and me, something greater than I know?’
She sat
looking at his face, first minutes and then hours passing by as she studied his
face and his features, trying to remember him, recognise him and maybe etch him
on the canvas of her mind so that she wouldn’t forget him again.
Buaji came
early in the morning to awaken Khushi.
Munna and Krishna would be arriving in a
few minutes and Khushi had to accompany them to the sweet shop.
Buaji
looked at Khushi’s pristine bed. It had not been slept in. Her heart jumped to
her throat.
“Hai Re
Nandkisore! Where is the Sanka Devi?” Buaji looked under the bed. It was free
of Khushi.
She peeked in to the bathroom. Again, no Khushi.
Buaji
parted her lips to holler for Garima, but stopped herself.
She walked to
Arnav’s room on silent feet.
The door
was open.
Arnav was
asleep on his back.
Khushi was
lying on him, her legs coiled around him to keep him in place. The fingers of
her left hand were curled around the neck of his T-shirt, holding on tight to
him.
Her right arm was on his left. Her head was tucked in the crook of his neck and she was clinging on to him like a limpet.
Her right arm was on his left. Her head was tucked in the crook of his neck and she was clinging on to him like a limpet.
Both of
them were fast asleep.
“Hai Re
Nandkisore!” Buaji whispered as she leaned against the door for support.
Part 18
Arnav woke
up first. Wrapped in the cosy warmth of Khushi’s arms and body, he opened his
eyes reluctantly. And saw the most beautiful sight of his life—Khushi clutching
his collar and resting in a Taekwondo pose on him.
He stared
at her, scared to blink for fear that she would vanish as she had vanished many
a time in the past five months when he woke up from his dreams.
As he gazed
his fill and relished the feel of her in his arms, Khushi woke up.
She lifted
her head and looked straight in to his alert, waiting eyes with sleepy ones.
“Good
morning,” Khushi mumbled, smiling.
“Good
morning,” he replied, waiting for it to strike Khushi that she was sharing his
bed and lying on him.
Khushi
looked around. The smile vanished as if someone had wiped it off and horror took its place. Her eyes widened to
their maximum limits and her mouth fell open in an Awww.
She pushed her torso
off him by trying to rest her weight on her arms.
“I am
sorry…maaf keejiye….hum pagal he….I am so so sorry…what will Buaji say if she
sees me sprawled all over Jiji’s Jetji? He Devi Maiyya, raksha karna…why do you
push me in to such situations…it is all your fault…” Khushi chanted as she slid
off Arnav and fell off the bed on to the ground.
Arnav got
off the bed and held out a hand to help her.
Khushi looked at the hand.
The image of Arnavji in a black coat and light blue shirt, his face cold and stern, holding out his hand for her to help her up flashed through her mind.
Khushi gulped. She looked at Arnavji’s face. It was soft,
affectionate, amused. A tender and indulgent look filled his eyes.
She took
his hand. ‘What is the use of quibbling over taking his hand after spending the
night crawling all over him, Khushi?’ she asked herself.
“I—I
couldn’t sleep,” Khushi made excuses. But that was not his fault, was it?
“I just
came to look at you, Arnavji,” she added. Was he a picture or a painting in a
gallery for her to gaze at? She sighed, disgusted with herself.
“It is OK,
Khushi,” he said softly, tickled beyond belief.
Khushi
sighed heavily making Arnav want to laugh out loud.
“It is not
OK. You are kind, Arnavji. That is why you said it is alright. But it is not alright,”
Khushi explained seriously.
Arnav
nodded, trying to keep a straight face.
“Waise, I
don’t go around stealing in to other people’s bedrooms and sleeping on them,”
Khushi made it clear.
Arnav
nodded.
“I am not
like that—that is, I think I am not like that…” her voice faded away as she
tried to figure out her personality and her virtues and vices.
“You are
not,” Arnav supported her and got a blindingly bright smile for his efforts.
“If you say
I am not, then you must be right,” Khushi declared. “Because you can remember
me, can’t you, Arnavji? I may have
forgotten myself, but you didn’t forget me, did you Arnavji? You know me, don’t
you Arnavji?”
Arnav
swallowed at her plea for recognition.
“Yes,
Khushi. I remember you. I will never forget you. I know you. Through and
through. Better than I know myself,” Arnav said softly.
Khushi
smiled, happy.
Aman
called.
“They have
located Sunehri, Sir. In Gopalganj, about 60km from Lucknow,” he said.
Arnav’s jaw
tightened.
Aman gave
him the address. Arnav noted it down in silence.
“Sir, would
you like me to come over?” Aman asked.
“No, I will
manage. Just take care of the office and keep me in the loop,” ASR said.
“Yes, Sir.”
Arnav
asked, “Khushi, what is this?”
Khushi
turned to look at the junk that was her father’s milk scooter. She laughed.
“This is Babuji’s scooter. He used to go every morning on it to buy milk to
make sweets.”
“Does it
run still?” Arnav asked.
“Let me
see,” Khushi tied her dupatta across her torso and tried to start it.
To their
shock, the scooter started with a cough.
Khushi
laughed. “It is old, but it still has some life left in it.”
Khushi
clambered on to it and began to edge it forward, inch by inch. “Come on, run.
You are Chetak, Maharana Pratap’s horse. Don’t give up now. Chalo, chalo…” she
exhorted the scooter, not noticing that Arnav had vanished.
He went to
get his whte SUV and as Khushi was turning the scooter along a curve, he
brought the car to a stop in such a way that Khushi could not help but run in
to him.
His car
being still and her scooter moving at a very slow pace, she was unharmed. She
sat staring at him, the front of her scooter kissing the shining, polished
exterior of his luxury vehicle.
He alighted
and walked up to her.
“Khushi,”
he called, placing his hand on her shoulder.
She leaned
against him, trembling. “Arnavji…”
“Hhmmm?” He
could not say anything more.
“I—I …”
Arnav
helped her get off the scooter.
He held her against him, letting the scooter
fall on the ground. He helped her to the cot in the courtyard. Khushi sat
there, panting, feeling her head spin.
Arnav sat
close to her, giving her his shoulder to rest against.
They sat silent for
long.
Finally,
Khushi said, “Rs25,000 for a minor scratch on your vehicle, Arnavji?"
Part 19
“I should
not have—I was too shocked to see you in Delhi…” his voice trailed away. His
arm around her shoulders tightened in fear that she would move away from him.
Khushi
settled herself more comfortably against him.
“It was
Bediji’s scooter,” she explained.
Arnav
rubbed her head gently, his fingers lingering on her silky tresses.
“Buaji
started wheezing. I needed to buy her phoo phoo. That is why I took Bediji’s
scooter even though it was late. And then I had to run in to you,” Khushi
pouted.
Arnav
smiled. “Do you have a license, Khushi?”
Khushi
turned her head away.
“You are a
menace, Khushi. On the roads & otherwise.” Arnav smiled gently.
Khushi
glared at him.
“I may be a
menace. I am being truthful here and not denying that I do make people want to
pull out their hair with both hands or strangle me sometimes. But I am nothing
compared to you. You are the big menace. The baap of all menaces.” Her pointed
finger poked him in the chest.
Arnav
looked at her serious, miffed face with gentle eyes.
“I was
happily walking about Lucknow’s galiis and you had to humiliate me and my
family to such an extent, even broadcasting my nocturnal visit to your
godforsaken fashion show to every house in my city that you made it impossible
for me to stay here,” she huffed after recounting his sins in one breath.
“Do
you know how angry Amma and Buaji were? Amma banished us from Lucknow. She
exiled us to Delhi,” she fumed, breathing fire.
Arnav
looked suitably penitent. “Really?” he asked.
“Aap pooch
rahe he ‘Really’? Am I making up stories here?” Khushi asked. “Yes, really. And
poor Jiji. I sinned and Jiji too had to pay the price. She had to accompany me
to your rotten Delhi. How could she let me go alone? Horrible Delhi. Just like
you. Aap ko pata he how much vegetables cost there? I can buy an entire farm of
vegetables here for the price I had to pay for a bunch of greens there.”
Arnav
looked at her, his eyes fixed on her face.
“And I had
to see that Shyam Manohar Jha there,” Khushi grimaced.
“Where did
you see him in Delhi?” Arnav’s eyes perked up.
“Where did
I not see him? He was everywhere. In the market, behind the pots, by the kaddu
at the vegetable vendor’s, behind trees, in tea shops—he was everywhere. He was
giving me darshan every day like God.”
“Did he—did
he try to talk to you, Khushi?” Arnav asked.
“Why
couldn’t he talk to me?” Khushi asked, perplexed. “He was not dumb and I am not
deaf. And I had to ask him for help to get a job in Delhi. I had to pay your
debt of 25,000 and I knew no one in Delhi except him,” Khushi sighed heavily.
“He got you
a job?” Arnav asked.
“Why are
you asking me stupid questions as though you have amnesia? Bimari hamein he.
Aap ko nahi he. Samjhe aap?” Khushi growled.
“Khushi…”
“How could
you be so cruel, so rude? And that too to the girl who was going to be your
brother’s wife’s sister? Not that you knew it then, but that is not an excuse,”
Khushi declared.
“I am
sorry, Khushi,” he apologised, a break
in hs voice.
“You should
be ashamed of yourself,” Khushi gave it to him. “Dropping me from a height, He
Devi Maiyya! What if I had broken my neck and died? Would you have given me my
life back? How would you have explained my death to my Amma, Babuji and Buaji?”
“I—I was wrong,
Khushi. I—I thought—I was angry to see you there…” Arnav tried to explain but
found he had nothing to say.
“Is your
anger a good excuse for attempting my
murder?” Khushi raised her brows and stared at him.
“No. I am
sorry,” Arnav said.
“I should
have died and then you would have been sorry. Really sorry,” Khushi declared.
“But I would not have been able to see you apologizing to my family. Because I
would be dead then,” she reasoned. “So this is better.”
She snuggled closer to
him.
“I was scared of you, but it was fun too. Fighting you every day, beating
you at the challenges you posed,” she smiled. Suddenly the smile died away.
“But making me stand in the rain at night was too much. How could you?”
“I am so
sorry, Khushi. I can’t tell you how bad I feel…I felt…” Arnav tried to explain.
“I wanted
to go home early. It was Jiji’s birthday. Ek, she had to leave Lucknow and come
to Delhi because of me. Do, we could spend just ten minutes together on her
birthday, from 11.50 to 12 at night. And it was all because of you.”
“Khushi!”
“And I
could not even get her a gift. I was planning to go out during my lunch break
and get her something. And then you had to give me a load of papers to correct
the spelling of your name? What was so urgent about it? And then that stupid
model’s coat! Am I a coat hanger to hold up her coat till she decides to wear
it? How dare you give it to me and ask me to hold it?”
“I am
sorry, Khushi. I…”
“I did not
spill juice on her precious coat. Pamji and Simji did.”
“I believe
you.”
“What is
the use of believing me now? You didn’t believe me then. And how dare you give
me that chota kapda and ask me to wear it? What did you think of me?”
“Khushi!”
“Imagine me
wearing that short dress and walking before my Buaji! She will exclaim ‘Hai Re Nandkisore’
and die on the spot of a heart attack!” Khushi glowered at him.
“I am
sorry, Khushi. I didn’t know you well…”
“To jaanna
chahiye tha na? You should have tried to know me before punishing me,” she
said.
Arnav could
only nod.
“And coming
home wet and cold to see Shyam Manohar Jha settled in as a paying guest in
Buaji’s house. He Devi Maiyya! What ghor paap did I do in my last birth to be
punished with his presence!” Khushi
bemoaned her fate.
“Khushi…”
Arnav whispered.
“You are no
better!” Khushi chastised him. “Making me take measurements of the male models
in your office! He Devi Maiyya! If I had not tied a rakhi on one boy’s wrist, made
him my bhaiyya and made him take the measurements, how would I have managed?”
Khushi wiped the sweat off her forehead.
“You
did—what?” Arnav gasped.
“What else
was I supposed to do? Do you know what I felt as I saw all the naked boys
standing in that room when I walked in?” Khushi narrowed her eyes at him.
“Err—I can
imagine,” Arnav said.
“I am sure
you can. And dusht rakshas, you sent me to the guest house! A guest house that
was falling around my ears,” Khushi pushed her face closer to his to make her
displeasure clear.
“I didn’t
know that it was in such a bad condition,” Arnav made his excuses quickly,
trying to get in a word between her accusations.
“You should
have known,” Khushi stated. “It is your building and you sent me to it. You
should have known.”
“Yes, I
should not have sent you there,” Arnav sighed. “I am sorry.”
“Ab bas bhi
keejiye. How many times will you say ‘sorry’?” Khushi asked. “Suniye, you
listen to all my scoldings first, chup chap like a good boy. After I finish you
can say one sorry for all of them,” Khushi suggested, a twinkle in her eyes.
Arnav
looked at the laughter in her eyes with wonder.
She looked
away, her eyes resting on his car and her Babuji’s scooter.
“Waise, you
rescued me from the car in the car park and got wet in the bargain,” Khushi
conceeded.
“I put you
in danger.”
“You did.
And then you saved me.”
Arnav
looked at her.
“And that
night at the guest house. You had to come to save me,” Khushi looked in to his
eyes.
“I sent you
there.”
“You did.
And then you saved me.”
Arnav
sighed.
“First you
endanger me, hurt me, make me cry. Then you come to help me. Is it an acquired
habit or one you have been suffering from birth?” Khushi asked, her eyes
laughing at him.
Arnav
looked at her, silent for a moment. Then he said, “Khushi, I can confidently
say that you have, single-handedly, changed the course of my life.”
Khushi
laughed. “I am sure I did. Remember the day I came to give my resignation to
you? I was so happy to shout at you, to say everything I had been wanting to
say to you for so long. I am sure no one has ever abused you so in your entire
life.”
Arnav
looked at her.
Khushi frowned.
She caught hold of his hand. “Arnavji, if I left you and your office, then how
did we meet after that? We must have met. Otherwise how would Jiji meet Jiju?”
He covered
her hand with his, silently asking her to be patient.
They sat
together for long.
Finally
Arnav turned to look at Khushi’s peaceful face.
“Khushi, in
my office…”
“Ji?”
“Err…whom
do you remember—in my office?” Arnav asked, his heart in his mouth.
Khushi
frowned. “Pamji, Simji…”
“And?”
A smile
spread on her face. “Amanji.”
“And?”
‘Who?”
“Manjuji,
your canteen manager. She is so nice, so kind,” Khushi’s smile grew soft at the
thought.
“And?”
“Jiju.”
“Anyone
else?” Arnav could hear his heart thud in his chest.
Khushi
frowned and moved restlessly in her seat. “I don’t know any one else.”
Arnav’s
throat closed over. Her mind had pushed Lavanya in to some dark abyss.
Arnav, in
full ASR-style formal clothes and closed face, walked to his car.
“Arnavji!”
Khushi called.
Arnav
turned to see her in her yellow suit, all ready to go to her shop.
“Where are
you going so early in the morning?” Khushi asked, all cheerful.
“Gopalganj.”
Khushi
frowned. “Are you going to the temple there?”
“No. I have
an appointment there,” Arnav said shortly.
“Appointment?
In Gopalganj?” Khushi’s face held bewilderment.
“I need to
meet a lady there,” Arnav said.
Khushi
looked at him, her eyes direct on his eyes that were hidden by sunglasses. Her
face paled and she said softly, “You are going to see some girl? For marriage?”
“What the!”
ASR exclaimed.
“Are you
going to see some girl to marry? You should take your family along with you.
They too might like to see her,” Khushi smiled from a pale face.
“Of course
not! What—nonsense…I am going to see a middle-aged lady. For business
purposes…” Arnav spluttered.
Khushi drew
in a deep breath. “Oh!”
Arnav
turned away to open his car door.
“Then why
is your face so cold? Like it was in your office. Cold on the outside but with
a fire raging inside in your heart?” Khushi asked.
Arnav
turned to look at her, shocked.
Part 20
Arnav
parked his car at the end of the street and looked around, his jaw clenched.
Seedy. That was all he could say of the
decaying garbage piles in the corners of the narrow roads and the rundown
edifices, the unkempt people loitering around aimlessly, the women collecting
water from public taps and fighting amongst themselves, shouting abuses loudly
and the shabby, half-naked children playing on the road.
He opened
the door—and gagged. The stench of rotting sewage was overpowering.
He covered
his nose with his hanky and looked at the paper with the address.
Door 171 of
Kamini Chawl meant nothing to him.
He
approached the owner of the local tea shop.
“Where is
Kamini Chawl?” he asked.
The man eyed
ASR’s expensive clothes and his upmarket car with eager eyes. “Whom do you want
to see? Why are you here?” Morbid curiosity filled his voice.
“Where is
it?” ASR was in no mood for any nonsense.
“Go ahead,”
the man pointed to a narrow alley. “As you enter, you will find a huge building to your left.
That is it. But you won’t be able to take your car there.”
ASR nodded
his thanks and walked briskly in the direction pointed out. He came to a stop
before the huge decaying building made up of hundreds of small apartments.
He
swallowed. Sunehri apparently hadn’t profited from his father’s death or her
dancing.
He entered
the building avoiding the questioning and curious glances of many. He walked up
the dirty, narrow stairs and corridors, avoiding the many clotheslines on which
shabby underclothes danced in the breeze.
Finally he
stood before door 171. A brown door that had once upon a time been white stared
at him. There was no doorbell. He knocked, first gently and then loudly.
“Why are
you knocking down the door, you son of a ***?” came the growl from within
before the door was pulled open.
Arnav
stared at Sunehri, his eyes wide in shock. ‘His father had—his father had
cheated on his mother with this—this was the lady who had ensnared his father?’
he wondered.
Middle-aged.
Thin to the point of being invisible. Her face was gaunt, the cheekbones
pronounced. Her stringy hair was piled up on top of her head in a shabby bun.
His resentment seeped away slowly. His picture of a femme fatale who had lured
his father to his doom faded in to nothing.
“Kya he?”
she asked, none too pleased. Her voice was rough, her expression feral.
“I—I am
Arnav Singh Raizada,” he said.
“To?” the
lady asked, her hands on her hips.
“Are you
Sunehri?” he asked.
“And if I
am?” Her animosity was a live being.
“I need to
talk to you,” he said.
“TALK— to
ME?” Sunehri asked. “Men don’t usually want to TALK to me.” She smiled, full of
contempt.
Arnav
swallowed in distaste. “It will be worth your while,” he said, taking a sheaf
of notes out of his wallet.
Sunehri
looked at his face and at the notes. “Come in,” she invited.
Arnav
looked around the tiny room. The walls needed paint, the little furniture there
was needed to be thrown out. Curtains were non-existent but the room was
dust-free.
He sat down carefully on the only chair in the room, a chair that
shuddered at his weight.
Sunehri sat
on the floor, her knees raised, her legs spread, facing him, her wary eyes
trained on him.
He placed
the notes on the tiny three-legged leaning table near the chair.
Sunehri
looked at the money and then at him suspiciously.
He took the
money, walked up to her, and placed it by her on the floor. He returned to his
chair.
“What do
you want?” she asked.
“Information.”
“About
what?”
“Arvind
Mallik,” he said softly.
Sunehri’s
shocked eyes looked in to his for a moment. Then she said, “Get out.”
Arnav did
not move. “I am Arnav Singh Raizada, Arvind Mallik’s son,” he said.
“His son?”
Sunehri’s voice was a thread. “Arvind Mallik’s son?”
“Yes.”
“The
bastard. May he rot in hell!” Sunehri made her mind very clear.
Arnav sat
silent watching Sunehri. Her fury seemed to be an echo of his.
Khushi…Khushi,
he chanted.
“I—we
didn’t know about you,” Arnav said softly.
“There was
no need for you to know about me,” Sunehri’s s lips twisted in a bitter smile.
“Why should a man’s family know about the sluts he keeps on the side?”
Arnav
swallowed.
“I heard
that you came to Sheesh Mahal to meet him, to ask him for a house he had
promised you?” Arnav asked, trying to swallow the bile rising in his throat.
“Yes.”
“You came
to see his corpse the day after he died?” Arnav asked.
“Yes. I
needed to make sure that he was dead,” Sunehri said.
Arnav’s
eyes widened in shock. Khushi…Khushi…his heart murmured.
Sunehri
sighed.
Slowly, she
said, “I was a dancer at a kotta in Lucknow. Then.” She looked at Arnav, a sour
smile on her lips. “I did not look like this then. I had flesh on my body.
Flesh that men were fond of preying on. Flesh I sold daily to survive.”
Arnav
waited, his heart beating hard, loud. The truth was before him. It would come
in to his grasp soon.
“A baharwali.
A tawaif. A prostitute. That was me. Your father paid the Sahiba at the kotta
for keeping me for his sole use. He moved me out of the kotta in to a small
house that he rented for one year in my name. He used to visit me there. At the
end of the year he dispensed with my services,” Sunehri smiled. “He didn’t have
the guts to come and tell me. He just stopped visiting me. Nor was he bothered
about what would happen to me. I couldn’t return to the kotta anymore. The
lease of the house was about to expire and the landlord was pressing me to move
out.”
Arnav
looked at her lined face, his jaw clenched. The legacy he had inherited was as
bitter as poison and as painful as a bed of thorns.
“Arvind
Mallik had promised to buy me a house whenever our relationship ended. I needed
that house badly. I tried to contact him, many times. But he managed to elude
me. I was desperate. That was why I went to Sheesh Mahal to get hold of him.”
“Did you
see him?” Arnav asked, swallowing hard.
“Yes.”
“Did he
agree to give you the house?” Arnav asked.
“No. The
rat wanted to weasel out of his promise. He pushed me out of his study with
vague promises of meeting later. I walked about the house. There was some
function going on there. The house was decorated and there was music being
played. I mingled with the guests and found out that Arvind Mallik’s daughter
was getting married,” Sunehri frowned. “That must be your sister?” she asked.
“Yes.”
“I see,”
Sunehri nodded. “I thought that would give me additional leverage. That I could
get the house out of him by threatening to reveal myself to his family on the
wedding day. So I hung around without leaving as Arvind Mallik had instructed.”
Arnav’s
chest felt tight. He focused his eyes on the painfully-thin lady’s
weather-beaten face.
Khushi…Khushi…Her name calmed his soul.
“I don’t
know what happened for a few hours after that. There was some commotion. People
were running up and down,” Sunehri frowned. “I wondered if someone had found
out about me being there. Anyway I sidled to the study and hid myself behind a
curtain, waiting for Arvind Mallik to make an appearance.”
“Could you
talk to him again?” Arnav asked.
“No. He did
come in an hour or so later, but his brother was with him. So I stood there for
hours till the coast was clear and then ran home,” Sunehri said.
“You were
in the study for long?” Arnav asked.
“Yes. I
could not get out,” Sunehri said, a remnant of half-forgotten panic flashing
across her face.
“He killed
himself in the study,” Arnav said softly.
Sunehri
jerked in shock.
“Did you
see him die?” Arnav asked, his eyes serious.
Sunehri
looked away, silent. “No.”
“Why did he
kill himself?” Arnav asked, his voice free of judgement.
“Who
knows?” Sunehri looked away.
“You know,”
Arnav said, his voice ringing with conviction.
“Take this
and go,” Sunehri held out the money. “The last thing I want is a police case.”
“There will
be no case. I promise,” Arnav leaned back in his chair and refused to take back
the money.
Sunehri
laughed, her laughter holding no amusement. “You promise. And I should believe
you? Your father too made many promises. I believed him and today…” her voice
trailed away.
“I am Arnav
Singh Raizada. I am not Arvind Mallik,” Arnav said. The righteousness of his
Nani, the love of his Di, the maternal care his Mami had showered on him, the respect
his Mamaji had for him, the love and unfailing faith his brothers had in him,
the responsibility of hundreds of employees that he carried on his shoulders,
the implicit faith and trust and love Khushi reposed in him shone from his face, added conviction to his
words.
Sunehri
looked at his drawn face, its fine lines, his resolute eyes, the hard jaw.
“No, you
are not Arvind Mallik. You are strong. He was weak. Very weak. I realised it
too late…” Sunehri sighed.
“What
happened that night?” Arnav asked.
“Why should
I tell you?” Sunehri asked.
“Money. You
can have five lakhs today if you tell me the truth about what you saw in that
study,” Arnav said softly.
Sunehri’s
face twisted in to a mockery of a smile. “I will either end up in jail or
dead.”
“You won’t.”
“I can’t
take the risk,” Sunehri said softly.
“I promise.
Even if you killed Arvind Mallik with your bare hands, I promise not to file a
case against you,” Arnav said equally softly.
Sunehri
smiled sadly but remained silent.
Arnav drew
in a deep breath. What he had to do was difficult. Laying the cards on the
table was always an exercise in vulnerability and it was alien to his
character. But he had to do it. His mistakes with Khushi had taught him that
and more.
He spoke
softly, from his heart. “My mother saw you with my father.”
Sunehri
looked up in shock.
“My
sister’s wedding preparations were on. And my parents were fighting about you."
“My mother
asked him about you. She cried. She left the room. We heard a gun shot. She
killed herself,” Arnav said, his face and voice expressionless.
Sunehri
gasped.
“My father
killed himself in the study two hours later. He apparently shot himself out of
love for his wife.”
Sunehri
stared at him, willing herself not to make a sound.
“The
wedding got cancelled. Di and I were left with the corpses of our parents. The
next day Chachaji turned us out of the house in the clothes we were wearing.”
Sunehri’s
eyes became moist but she still met Arnav’s grave eyes.
“That is
why I want to know what happened that day. To find closure,” Arnav sighed. “My
sister and I—we—for the past fourteen years…”
Sunehri
looked at his face. Both of them sat looking at each other for long.
Finally
Arnav stood up. . He had lost now, but maybe Sunehri would reconsider and put
him out of his misery later. He had
learnt patience at Khushi’s feet.
He handed
over his card to her.
“Call me if
you are willing to talk. I will come with the five lakhs,” he said.
Sunehri
remained silent.
He walked
towards the door.
As he
reached for the broken handle of the door, he felt a small tug on his other
arm.
Part 21
Arnav’s
breath came to a stop.
He turned
around slowly, unable to believe what was happening.
Sunehri
tightened her hold on his arm. He looked down at the thin, claw-like digits
fastened around his arm.
“Come with
me,” she said.
Arnav
nodded.
She led
Arnav in to the flat, holding him by the arm. She took him to a tiny room
leading from the living room.
It was a pitiful excuse for a bedroom, capable
of holding only a tiny single bed.
But Arnav did not see the poverty of the
surroundings.
He saw only the tiny figure of the girl lying in bed, asleep.
Short hair framing a pale face, a thin scrawny neck, stick-like arms and legs
lying limp on the cot…
He turned
to look at Sunehri, a question in his eyes.
“My
daughter,” Sunehri said softly.
“Oh,” Arnav
said. “What is wrong with her?” he whispered.
“She was
born this way. Paralysed. She can’t get out of bed,” Sunehri said.
She led him
back to the living room.
“This is
why I was desperate to get the house,” she whispered.
Arnav’s
eyes widened. “She—she—My father…”
“Yes.
Unfortunately,” Sunehri sat down wearily on the floor, leaning her frail body
against the wall.
Arnav
collapsed in the chair. Would his father’s iniquities never end? He felt his
stomach turn, the palpitations of his heart deafening him.
“I told
him. That day at Sheesh Mahal. He said it was not his responsibility. He said
that a prostitute had to be responsible for her mistakes,” Sunehri said softly.
Arnav
looked at her, feeling his head swim.
“He was
right. Prostitutes are normally left with the evidence of their sins while
their fellow sinners vanish with the dawn. I was willing to take responsibility
for what my body had produced, but I needed help. I needed a house and I needed
money because a pregnant prostitute cannot work,” Sunehri smiled slightly at
him. “That was all I expected of your father, but…”
Arnav could
not say a word.
“I worked
as long as I could even when pregnant. But when she was born—she needed
constant care. And as she grew up, things became more difficult. I could not
leave her alone in the house and go out to work. Nor could I bring men here.
She is paralysed, but her body is that of a young woman. If someone hits me on
the head and hurts her…” The hand that Sunehri raised to cup her forehead
trembled.
Arnav
swallowed past the big lump in his throat.
“I have a
few female friends, all in the same business. On some days they sit with her
while I go to work. On other days they give me some money or food. That is how
I have been managing.”
“The
doctors—they must have suggested some treatment?” Arnav asked.
“How can I
carry her to the hospital? And will any doctor come for a house visit in this chawl?” Sunehri asked.
Arnav had
no answer to give.
“I didn’t
tell you all this to ask for your help. You owe me nothing. But I want you to
protect me and Asha by not dragging me in to a police case.” Sunehri’s tired
eyes looked directly in to his.
“I
promise,” Arnav said.
“Arvind
Mallik and his brother came in to the study. I was hidden behind the long
curtains. I could hear them arguing. From what I could hear your father was
angry about some properties of his he had asked his brother to transfer in to
your sister’s name. They were supposed to be her dowry. When the boy’s family
went through the papers, they found that the documents were forged. That the
properties had in fact been registered in Anurag Mallik’s name.”
Arnav drew
in a deep breath.
“Anurag
Mallik shot Arvind Mallik. I saw it,” Sunehri said softly.
“I believe
you.”
She
relaxed.
“But I
couldn’t believe what my eyes had seen. I stood frozen like a statue for hours
behind the curtain while the police came and Anurag told his lies and many
people wailed and got the corpse ready for cremation. I returned home at dawn.”
“You
returned later to confirm the facts,” Arnav stated.
“Yes. And
to see if I could get some money out of Anurag Mallik. The landlord visited me
that morning threatening to throw my belongings on the road if I did not leave
by that evening.”
Arnav
nodded.
“But when I
came face to face with your uncle, I changed my mind. The cruelty in his eyes,
the greed, his willingness to kill his own brother for money—they made me rethink
my decision. And the realisation that I could be putting the child in my womb
in danger if even a whisper of my witnessing the murder got out.”
“That was a
wise decision,” Arnav said.
“Yes. But
if you go to the police with this, I will have to give evidence. Then Anurag
will kill Asha and me,” Sunehri said, anxiety filling her tired eyes.
“I am not
going to the police with this case,” Arnav said softly.
Sunehri
drew in a long breath of relief.
“I will
deal with him in my own way. You will never come in to the picture. I promise,”
Arnav said.
Sunehri
nodded.
“Would you
like to retire from the business?” Arnav asked.
Sunehri
stared at him. Finally she nodded.
“What do
you want from life?” Arnav asked her, Khushi having taught him to take other
people’s wishes in to consideration.
“A roof
over our heads, a house that no one can force us to vacate,” the woman said.
“And?”
“A steady
source of income. I don’t mind what kind of work it is, how hard it is. As long
as I can do it from my home,” the lady said.
“Would you
mind leaving Lucknow?” Arnav asked.
“No. I
would be glad to leave this city,” she said.
Arnav
called Aman, and sitting in that dingy room, made all the necessary
arrangements.
He told
Sunehri, “Pack your things. An ambulance will be getting her soon. The nurses
will help you move Asha in to it. You will be going to Delhi. I have arranged
your stay in a small property I own. As soon as I get back to Delhi, I will
transfer it in to your name.”
Sunehri
stared at him in disbelief.
“My
secretary, Aman will be getting here soon. He will accompany you to Delhi and
make all the arrangements. I have asked him to get you a bank account. I will
transfer a good sum in to your account. You will never have to worry about
money again.”
Sunehri was
speechless, her eyes moist.
“He will
make arrangements for Asha to see a specialist. Let’s see what the doctor has
to say. I will take care of all her medical expenses. I need to be in Lucknow
for a few more days, but when I get back to Delhi, we can see about starting a
small business from your house. Is that OK?”
Sunehri
looked at him in wonder.
“Are you
really Arvind Mallik’s son?” she finally asked, blinking away her tears.
“Yes.
Unfortunately my mother was a very moral lady,” Arnav smiled slightly.
Sunehri too
had to smile.
“You are
not like him. You must be like your mother,” Sunehri thought aloud.
“I would
like to think so too,” Arnav said. “Can I meet Asha once more?”
Sunehri
wiped her eyes dry and took Arnav in to the tiny bedroom again.
“Asha?”
Sunehri called softly.
The thin
girl on the cot opened her eyes. She smiled at her mother.
“Asha,
someone wants to see you,” Sunehri said, pointing to Arnav.
Asha turned
her head and looked at him. She smiled.
“This is
Arnav Singh Raizada,” Sunehri introduced him to her daughter, not claiming any
relationship with him.
“Your
brother,” Arnav said, gently touching the frail fingers of one hand lying on
the cot.
Asha’s eyes
widened. They looked in to his with astonishment, joy and hope.
Her fingers
clasped his in return.
“Khushi…Khushi..”
his heart murmured. He wanted to see her, bury his head in her bosom and weep.
Part 22