This blog contains some of my IPKKND stories.







1. Heart-to Heart By The Pool





Arnav dragged his eyes away from the enchanting picture she made with great difficulty, & focused on the guest who had appeared to congratulate him. When he had dealt with a couple of intruders, he turned to see her march over to him and stare at him with wide, frank eyes.

"Khushi, tum is tarah kyun dekh..." (Does she want to tell me something..or comfort me...?)

She cut in (Tell me about it), & said in a low voice,
"You have proved once again that u are Arnav Singh Raizada. U are smiling after what you have done to Lavanyaji, but have you seen how upset she is?"

"Khushi, u have no idea what happened." (How do I make her understand? I have just saved La & myself from making the biggest mistake of our lives.)

"When u are involved, it does not take a lot of thought to figure out what must have taken place."

Arnav clenched his jaw & looked at the guests milling around. He then did what he had been wanting to do for a long time. He caught hold of her arm and dragged her into his lair, by the pool.

"Let go! What are u doing?"

"There is no need for you to talk of a situation u know nothing about.", he fumed. (Why does she always think the worst of me?)

"Zaroorat he!. You have to tell me what excuse you came up with this time to break Lavanyaji's heart..." (Damn! She figured out that my lies on Diwali night were all excuses to push her away from me. She thinks I have done the same to La...Damn & double damn. I hurt her so much...)

"Tell me.. Or did you think that no one will ask you..."

"Khushi, listen to what I have to tell you..." (No more misunderstandings between us. Let me clear it up once & for all.)

"No, I won't listen to you...(Hello, I am trying to explain the inexplicable here. And I am ASR. I don't explain ever, not even to my family. So why can't you listen when I am willing to bend my rules for u?)...You were right when you said that you don't understand bhavana/ feelings." Arnav slid his glance away from her eyes. (I do...I do..Why else do I have to hide my eyes from you most of the time?)

"You understand only the language of money & power." (S***, did I really say that to her?)

"So tell me, Mr. Raizada,  what have you gained by breaking Lavanyaji's heart, by breaking this relationship?"

Arnav lifted his eyes and looked at her uncomprehending face. (You are my gain, my profit. The freedom to dream about you, the right to worry about you...I have regained them. You can bury your head in the sand. I can't. I won't.)

"Do you have any idea how a girl feels when her engagement breaks?" (Why is she saying this? Why is she so hurt? Did her sagai...be still my heart!)

"Do you know what it feels like when a boy who is to become a part of your life & ur family (Go on...but she is so upset) reveals his true face in front of you (Yes! I knew something was wrong! But..but she is so sad) and breaks your trust into little pieces?" (Thank you, Devi Maiyya. So that's why she was so upset the other day. Finally, a light at the end of the dark tunnel...but she is so unhappy. God, I did the same to her on Diwali night..showed her a piece of heaven, & then thrust her into hell. Dammit!)

"So how can I believe in anyone?" (Am I just anyone to u? My arms, shoulders etc are available, u know, if u want to cry...Arnav, don't show your relief.)

"You won't understand...(No, darling. U don't understand why I am doing all this...)..how it feels when ones engagement breaks...when trust & faith are lost..."
(Softly...softly. Keep in character. Find out what happened to the rat who dared to put his ring on her finger. It has to be got out of her now. She won't talk about it once she gains control over her feelings. She has to be roused to anger.)

An Arnav at peace with himself, tamping down the joy rising in his heart, says to lead her on,
"Aur Tum Samajh Sakti Ho?"

"Ha, han, hum samajh sakte hein, kyonki hamara rishta toota he, hamare dil ko dhees pahoonchi he..." (YES! She is free. I am free. Yippeee...Finally the pain in my chest is gone. I can breathe again. Who is that son of a...? Just give me a minute with him...Khushi, you couldn't leave me, could you? Just as I couldn't become Lavanya's.). His eyes shone with suppressed happiness, his heart feeling light and full of hope.

What have I done?, Khushi thought. He Devi Maiyya, what have I just told him? The look in his eyes, like a tiger on prowl...I could have said anything else...why did I have to tell him about the broken sagai? I tried so hard to hide it from him, & then blurted it out myself. Khushi, u are ur own worst enemy...

But then he saw the pain in her eyes."Khushi..Khushi, why didn't u tell me... How did all this happen?"

"I don't want to talk about this." (Huh, she is talking like me. Talk about a quick learner...)

Time to leave, Khushi. You have done enough damage for today. U came to scold him for hurting Lavanyaji, and ... She wiped her tears, and turned and left the poolside as fast as she could.


Arnav was left by the pool with her name on his lips & hope in his heart.


A few pics I like to look at...ha..ha..



Chumma chumma de de.... 

Jiji, Tera Jetji deewana....

Laptop Se Uski Tum Kardo Sagai....

Kya Kare Yeh Hasna Bhi Na Jaane...

Aaton Pahar Dil Pe He Taale.....

I Don't Believe in Marriage....Without LOVE!, says Arnav Bitwaa.

Ek Kiss Ke Liye Kitna Intezaar Karna Pad Raha He!!!!!

O bekhabar, o behosh, betaabiyon ko na badah,
Dekh le hai pyaar ka kaisa nasha mujhpe chadha.....

Bheegi Bheegi ratomein kya sochti hai....
Ki main aake lipat jau tujhse isi barsat mein...
Aur aisa pyar ka ehsas karaun ki
Jab bhi baarish aaye tu mujhe yaad kare.......

Tere Naina Has Diye, 
Bas Gaye Mere Dil Mein,
Tere Naina......
Mere Dil Mein Jo Armaan Hai
Paaas Aake Zara Dekho Na.....

Ab dekho mil gaye ho to
Phir se na kahin kho jana 

Ankhon mein hi rehna
Bahaon mein tum mere so jaana......

Honton pe bas tera naam hai,
Tujhe chaahna mera kaam hai,

Tere pyaar mein paagal hoon main subah-o-shaam

Jaanam, I love you, you love me
Jaanam, I love you, you love me.....

Zara Zara Touch Me Touch Me Touch Me 
Zara Zara Kiss Me Kiss Me Kiss Me
Zara Zara Hold Me Hold Me Hold Me

Rabba Vee....

Bin tere sanam, is jahan mein
Beqakaar hum, dum da dum da dum
Bin tere sanam, is jahan mein
Beqakaar hum......

Mere haath mein tera haath ho 
Saari jannatein mere saath ho 
Tu jo paas ho, phir kya yeh jahaan
Tere pyaar mein ho jaoon fanaa......

Naina re...

Tu hi bura,
Tujhse bura na koyiii....

Khud hi dil ka rog lagaaye,
Khud hi baitha roye......

Naina re....